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I created my paintings by first producing a background. First, I made a gray textured background to represent the weather the day I went to see the painting.

In order to portray the fluctuation of emotions I experience in studying Stadia II, I was inspired by the graph of a heart monitor, as the activity of the heart is often thought as an indicator of emotion. I put in multiple layers of paint-brushing to add representative layers of complexity to the fluctuating line. The transition of colors represent the change in color of my emotions, from cool blue to excited red.

I chose light and opaque colors to represent the fuzziness of my emotions, which were subdued by fatigue and the gloomy weather. I also made my painting look childlike through the choice of rainbow colors and experimentation with shapes to respectively symbolize my fear and curiosity about the bigger world around me. The mismatch of colors in the stars are there to represent my lack of sense of belonging to the bigger world depicted through the painting, as well as my recurring confusion about the meanings of the shapes within the painting.